there is comfort in knowing that what is required of my heart is nothing more than a silent requiem. my words are bigger than my heart. and i need this realization that forever is not long enough. and i constantly ask for some salvation from loneliness, but my prayers are never answered… maybe that's because i gave up on god a long fucking time ago. and every word i say is fake, so fake.. i'm daring myself to reposition my characteristics in order to compensate for a more beautiful human being. and it’s not just the outside that counts.. when yr so damn ugly inside, it's a hell of a lot harder to cover up because they haven't revolutionized make up for the common damaged soul. and a paragraph of words will never suffice for what i really feel. the tension, the suspense . . . it all takes it’s toll.. so to forget those nights is to remember what i lost.. sullen memories of you fleeting in my nightmares.. a constant dagger into my back.. one million times, death over and over. the ambience of yr transient emotions.. one second, it's love, the next, it's hate and i just don’t know where i stand anymore in this skeletal embrace.

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